perfect outfit for a perfect day

all morning i've been wandering around, eating mostly (im trying to be health, i had a grapefruit (i start each moring with a grapefruit and i end each day with a grapefruit as of late, i dont know its like closure or something) and then i had egg whites, then i had chicken breast with honey, broccoli and cauliflower) its been a delightful morning. normally i cant handle being alone for long periods of time but im starting to like it (this is another sign im aging, also another sign is im wearing eye cream, but only because the guy at sephora gave me seriously a million testers of it, maybe he thought i was getting wrinkles. i just assumed he though i was cute, now im realizing it was probably the opposite haha) anways moving on from that memory, so im wandering through my house thinking about whether my hat matched the shirt and if my shirt really even goes with my pants, and since i have to go to church today i wanted to look somewhat together, oddly enough before i changed i had been walking around in a dress, you know just making breakfast, listening to music in one of my favorite dresses, but then i decided today was not a dress day.  so anyways i have a point its just taking me a minute to get there (people say writing is supposed to help you gather your thoughts, frankly i think it skatters mine) im thinking hmmm should i wear this, do i look dumb, what will people say and then this phrase popped into my head, "its of no concern to you". why is it we worry so freaking much of what people think, it doesnt affect them, they dont have to look at you, its really of no concern to anyone what you wear or, if you do you make up or if your big or skinny or any of those things, the only person it really concerns is you but even then not really because you dont even have to look at yourself.
a few nights ago i was reminiscing about my childhood, i was probably the most fearless kid ever, i would talk to anyone, i would do anything, no one really scared me, i definitely thought for myself. when do we learn fear? when do we let people opinion affect us so much? when i was in 7th grade i died my hair white and cut it all off, for my entire jr school career i was the weird girl who did what she wanted and didnt care people thought (i had white, purple, and orange and black hair) it was so much fun. but now im afraid of everything, i probably wouldnt even be able to stand up in front of my class and say something without turning red. so my question is just that, when did we all start devaluating ourselves to the point we're afraid to speak? to the point we're afraid to think for ourselves? the truth of the matter is people dont ask enough questions. so thats were my statement comes into play, what i do, or say, or think, or how i look, or act, is of no concern to you (im not say you my lovely blogging family im saying the general public :)

now i told you i was listening to music all morning. im going to show it to you.





so these are probably my most favorite songs ever. love the last one, and the first one to. watch country strong. so freaking good.

this was my outfit today and my super awesome nail polish.

 

  

 

 i am so bad at making decisions... i couldnt decide which picture i liked best so i just put all of them up.

my blogging may slow down in the next week since im going to be in California. but expect a few short and sweet messages.

LOVE YOU ALL :)

ps. im beginning to notice i write more things in () than i say about my general thoughts.... life is in the details.

i have sometime to burn this morning and then i have a busy busy day so i thought i would take sometime to reveal to you my latest obsession... the trench coat!

 this is my favorite one that i've seen so far. sort of a different look. the length is perfect and the shiny fabric is so fun and classy.

 i have a feeling that this color would be much more practical for me that the lighter tan.

 i like this in theory because i live in a city that is always raining, but i dont know if i really like it.

kind of makes the coat look more casual.

this is just more plain jane classic looking. standard.

i dont think you should have to ask but these are all burberry, i dont really think there is another option, although elizabeth and james do have a rather cute one i just saw at nordstoms (dont worry mom i was there so my friend could take something back). 

on another note, i just got the newest hillsong cd (yeah the one that isnt out yet) its great, i would recommend getting it, the best song is number 5. i would post it, but like i said it isnt out yet hahah.

ohhhhh oh oh i almost forgot, i have to post this because my mom told me fur coats are over rated. but i think they are beautiful and definitely want one for a (my birthday just pasted and so did christmas.... ) umm for a, i miss you so freaking much present :)

i cant decide if your a genius or a lunatic

Its been to long! Currently watching the bachelor... which personally i dont think is the healthiest thing for me at the moment. it leads me to the conclusion that boys are liars.
i should probably heed the advise in this book

Now that's enough about that. On to bigger and better things. Like my new make up :)

this lipstick was purchased... because it reminds me of my sister... whom i love.

 i couldnt decide which to put up. i love the make up... and also the book of poems. 

its over 100 years old. LOVE IT :)

Lately i've been watching a lot of old movie, it all started with little woman. Jo March inspires me. i loved Laurie... until he went for the little sister. when he purposes to Jo i almost cried, but then he turned into a crazy person and broke my heart. But Jo took it so well.

Next i had a Audrey Hepburn marathon that consisted of two movies (not so much a marathon, EXCEPT they are the longest movies in the world, old movies are so long especially old james bond movies!) anyways the two i watched were breakfast at tiffanys and funny face. they were both so good. she is beautiful!

She looks so innocent but glamorous all at once.

Ever since i was young people said i looked like twiggy (i used to have really short hair) so i've always loved her. before she was a judge on americas next top model and everything.

 Twiggy was so different for her time. Actually she still is pretty out there.

Short hair, extremely fair, dark eye bottom lashes.

i really dont think i have to explain Marylin. She is just the coolest.

i dont know who this last one is. but she is so pretty.

 i'm sorry i say love so much on here, but it really is just all about things i love. i have more, but i think this is enough for now. hopefully i will get around to posting more tomorrow.

On a personal note, good night mom, shay, kaths, and maybe kat... whom i suspect will be reading this tomorrow. miss you.

lets share

sometimes i rediscover the music on my itunes library, today i was brought back to junior high, tegan and sara are the best. here are my favs.

that really is just a few. there are many many more.

Christmas is over... time fore a new wish list

to whom it may concern,

the desires of my heart are unending.... i will list just a few :)

 i am having trouble deciding which color i like more. 

probably grey, so i could wear them with tights. 

and also leg warmers, dont judge me. im unique.

 the sparkles are radical,
but you could wear the cream with anything.

 i love christian louboutin. he makes the most beautiful shoes. 

they are always classy looking, but edgy also. the man has a gift.

 these are on my practical i want them now list. 

the only thing is they're really heavy.

i saw this picture and just fell in love with it.

the glasses the bow the fur. 

relaxed elegance

i didnt want you all to be overwhelmed by my long list of things, so we just touched on shoes... okay just christian louboutin shoes +  one pair of  sam edelman :)

OH NO! i almost forgot. the final thing on my wish list is...

  

YES, johnny depp is on my wish list. there is just something about the pirate look. tattoos and long hair are so cool. LOVE IT! also a reason i love heath ledger. and also this mystery man on the cover of men's fitness.

i really like the rocker style too, sadly i couldnt find any good pictures of that. 

but trust me when i do they will be up.

i miss you like the sun misses the flower in the dead of winter

the title for this entry is from my favorite movie, a knights tale. it's been one of my favorite quotes ever since the first time i watched it. lately i havent been home for the winter so i tend to say it often. it also reminds me of this song.

my mother and father,

the odder people are the more you miss them.

 

 my sister and her husband in hawaii last week. i miss them...

and the sun!